My biggest fear (quoted from Be Kind Rewind):
Jerry: How come you never got married Mr. Fletcher?
Elroy Fletcher: Well, the common story is, the girl that you's gon' ask you waited too long to ask. She went on to marry somebody else and then you can't find anybody to compare to her, so what happens?... You get old.
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Friday, February 11, 2011
figuring things out
I've never been a big proponent of Facebook. Sure, there are plenty of pros such as finding friends you've lost touch with, play some games to kill time, tell the world things only you'd care about like "waiting at the airport for my plane to board." Facebook is the perfect tool to build your online social status which doesn't necessarily correlate to reality.
I still see my ex-girlfriend there. We agreed to take each other off as friends so we can both move on. Problem is, we still have a lot of mutual friends. I'm perfectly fine with having mutual friends...it would be unfair for me to ask them to choose sides. Besides, what if they choose her instead of me? I rather not know the answer.
So I logged on today to reply to some messages and off to the right side of the window, I see her in a picture with a friend. I can't but look at it for a few seconds...is this up to date? Did they hang out recently? I don't want to know...right? No, I don't. Or maybe yes, I want to know whether she's happy without me? It doesn't matter anymore. Certain things can't be fixed. Really, it can't so what's the point?
Not only pictures serves as torturous reminders but how about old "pokes"? What the fuck do I do with those?? I certainly can't poke back. What do I with old pictures? I can remove tags so I'm not associated anymore but the pictures are still in those albums. I've decided I don't need to be so connected with my online social networking. If people care about me, we'd hang out. We're not going to make bullshit smalltalk on Facebook so we can keep some kind of superficial relationship that isn't going anywhere. I'll log on when I receive a notification that I received a new message. Aside from that, fuck you Facebook. Thanks for keeping us so connected.
You know what's a bad trait that follows loyalty? Is that you can't move you. Doesn't matter how much you distract yourself, it comes back to being alone at night with a wandering mind. More on that later.
I still see my ex-girlfriend there. We agreed to take each other off as friends so we can both move on. Problem is, we still have a lot of mutual friends. I'm perfectly fine with having mutual friends...it would be unfair for me to ask them to choose sides. Besides, what if they choose her instead of me? I rather not know the answer.
So I logged on today to reply to some messages and off to the right side of the window, I see her in a picture with a friend. I can't but look at it for a few seconds...is this up to date? Did they hang out recently? I don't want to know...right? No, I don't. Or maybe yes, I want to know whether she's happy without me? It doesn't matter anymore. Certain things can't be fixed. Really, it can't so what's the point?
Not only pictures serves as torturous reminders but how about old "pokes"? What the fuck do I do with those?? I certainly can't poke back. What do I with old pictures? I can remove tags so I'm not associated anymore but the pictures are still in those albums. I've decided I don't need to be so connected with my online social networking. If people care about me, we'd hang out. We're not going to make bullshit smalltalk on Facebook so we can keep some kind of superficial relationship that isn't going anywhere. I'll log on when I receive a notification that I received a new message. Aside from that, fuck you Facebook. Thanks for keeping us so connected.
You know what's a bad trait that follows loyalty? Is that you can't move you. Doesn't matter how much you distract yourself, it comes back to being alone at night with a wandering mind. More on that later.
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